Whispers

 My lover the wind teases me with soft caresses.

Seducing me with whispers of a forgotten tongue.

Connected to all, she brings me messages 

From far away and times long gone.

I find stillness in the motion

I find flight while on the ground

Swimming in an ethereal ocean 

Wrapped in a cloud, the stars are my crown.

Inhaling her essence, I become one

My soul is not sole, I am part of the whole 

Sharing our secrets away from the sun

Ancient and hidden the tales untold

The language of zephyrs

The songs of chinook 

Sharing lessons of forever

Yet using no book 

Singing altogether in layered harmony

The owl, the howl, the croak, the chirp

In the deep of the night I can just be

Alone and at one with the wind and the earth

Lunar Power

Tonight I stood under the moon,

I breathed the air of what's coming soon

The pieces of my broken dreams

Were mended by her silver beams

And when I felt I couldn't cope

I'm filled again with good hope

The moon with power over the tide

has changed the pull from inside

And in her muted light I see

the power that belongs to me.

Let go the pain that I feel

And now I may begin to heal

Tonight I share the moon above

so we can bathe in her love.

But magick just doesn't brew

only when the moon is blue

You should bask in her every night

Come glow in her cooling light

Feel the peace of her touch

aid you to accomplish much

Then the magick will begin

when you realize it's from within!

(c) Pamela McAfee 9/1/2012

Catch The Magick

 Wishing I could console a friend,

wishing I could make amends,

wishing I could find solace...

Wishing I could have one kiss.

As I think of being alone,

sitting here on my own.

I will remember we share the stars.

We catch the magick and make it ours.

Life is what happens

 Life is what happens:

At 3 in the morning my mind won't relax

My thoughts race amok in my mind on one track

Caught in the headlights of my future so bright

I'm paralyzed and won't move, frozen in fright.

Day in and day out, stuck in routine,

strolling the halls of, "what might have been."

I can see the promise of what lies in store

If only I had courage to walk out my door.

So safe in my room each day I hide,

trying to learn to take it in stride

Because, life is what happens without our consent

Time has no conscience, it doesn't relent.

I sift through the bullshit to find what is real

The currency that matters is one you can't steal.

At 3 in the morning, I'm anywhere but here

I'm lost in the night, dancing with fear.

Life isn't happening, it's caught in stasis.

I shouldn't be here, I know where my place is.

(c) Pamela McAfee 5/17/2013 (at 3 in the morning)

My Secret Smile

 A Samhain Time From Long Ago:

So many years ago when Saturn returned,

Who knew the lessons yet unlearned?

We were adrift in a sea of friends that night

Sailing in our darkness, we somehow felt the light

That attracts two lost and kindred souls

To safety amongst the rocks and shoals

Each day I lost more of my heart

On this path I did not chart

And you were hard like cold dark steel

whose secret chinks would not reveal

That you were one who did feel pain

and I was one who could be strong again.

In my arms you could yield

My caring heart would be your shield

I gave you my shoulder, you lent me your hand

And gave me strength so I could stand.

You know I loved you, your bad boy style!

You remain my secret smile.

And though our paths one day did part

You took with you a piece of my heart

You brought me music, you brought me thrills

You took me from a life that kills

the dreams of those like you and me

You changed my life, you set me free

Now you are gone and I still live

This Samhain maybe I'll forgive

My shield was not there to spare

but I hope you know that I did care

I couldn't take away your pain

If I could hold you once again

I would tell you there is hope

Even when you cannot cope

Words are empty when they fall

on your ears if I can't call

Maybe you thought you went alone

But you took a piece of my heart that you own

I hope it's so you will know me when we meet again

We always promised that we'd still be friends

This is not over...

Feast Of Fools

A fool's journey starts
When one stops.
Circles have no end.

The Pain I Cannot Share

"Happy Mother's Day," they say.