Catch The Magick

 Wishing I could console a friend,

wishing I could make amends,

wishing I could find solace...

Wishing I could have one kiss.

As I think of being alone,

sitting here on my own.

I will remember we share the stars.

We catch the magick and make it ours.

Life is what happens

 Life is what happens:

At 3 in the morning my mind won't relax

My thoughts race amok in my mind on one track

Caught in the headlights of my future so bright

I'm paralyzed and won't move, frozen in fright.

Day in and day out, stuck in routine,

strolling the halls of, "what might have been."

I can see the promise of what lies in store

If only I had courage to walk out my door.

So safe in my room each day I hide,

trying to learn to take it in stride

Because, life is what happens without our consent

Time has no conscience, it doesn't relent.

I sift through the bullshit to find what is real

The currency that matters is one you can't steal.

At 3 in the morning, I'm anywhere but here

I'm lost in the night, dancing with fear.

Life isn't happening, it's caught in stasis.

I shouldn't be here, I know where my place is.

(c) Pamela McAfee 5/17/2013 (at 3 in the morning)

My Secret Smile

 A Samhain Time From Long Ago:

So many years ago when Saturn returned,

Who knew the lessons yet unlearned?

We were adrift in a sea of friends that night

Sailing in our darkness, we somehow felt the light

That attracts two lost and kindred souls

To safety amongst the rocks and shoals

Each day I lost more of my heart

On this path I did not chart

And you were hard like cold dark steel

whose secret chinks would not reveal

That you were one who did feel pain

and I was one who could be strong again.

In my arms you could yield

My caring heart would be your shield

I gave you my shoulder, you lent me your hand

And gave me strength so I could stand.

You know I loved you, your bad boy style!

You remain my secret smile.

And though our paths one day did part

You took with you a piece of my heart

You brought me music, you brought me thrills

You took me from a life that kills

the dreams of those like you and me

You changed my life, you set me free

Now you are gone and I still live

This Samhain maybe I'll forgive

My shield was not there to spare

but I hope you know that I did care

I couldn't take away your pain

If I could hold you once again

I would tell you there is hope

Even when you cannot cope

Words are empty when they fall

on your ears if I can't call

Maybe you thought you went alone

But you took a piece of my heart that you own

I hope it's so you will know me when we meet again

We always promised that we'd still be friends

This is not over...