"Drunkenly sing about clouds in a blind panic"

I think of Billy Pilgrim
of Vonnegut's Prose.
Man unstuck in time
He says, "And so it goes."
Memories archived
Filed in my mind.
Retrieve a moment
I'm back in time
People may say
I live in the past
But as minutes fly
I try to hold fast.
Because what I know
is what I was
I'm what I did
not what she does.
I can't be sure
of what will be
nothing controls
eternity
I ground my self
I am now here
then a memory
begins to steer
me back in time
and i am nowhere
Between now here and nowhere
is only air.
Truth is I'm worried
of what is to come
I stay in the past
to keep myself numb
Drunkenly sing about clouds
in a blind panic
and live in the past
where my view's panoramic.